i have all these thoughts in my head, today im rapid cycling, and its triggered by real life situations. i feel quite overwhelmed and very tired after monitoring my mood every second of today and i still havent made it to bed. i think it will be easier to sleep after i get all of this out.
i was lying in the bath just now, i put some Jojoba oil from The Jojoba Company in my bath and it felt like i was bathing in silk. it was seriously divine. Anyway, just like how im writing, my thoughts were running away from me as i was relaxing. you see the things i do are never good enough, i always want to do better and be better, i always want to strive for perfection, but then i thought. What is perfection?
seriously, what is it?
Dictionary definition of Perfect:
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if we dont strive for perfection in everything we do, then are we settling for less than we are able to do? are we settling with ‘good enough’ without reaching ‘incredible’? but if we do always strive for perfection in everything, are we ever satisfied as to where we end up? because we will never ever reach perfection…..
when is ‘good enough’ enough? but how are we meant to make goals and have dreams if we dont want what is perfect for us? if we dont have that perfect ideal in our head as to where we want to be, or what we want to do or achieve, then are we settling for less than what we are capable of and less than what we deserve?